Find part 1 here: My best friend – part one
Is it possible to talk to someone every waking hour for 6 months, and then go to not speaking at all in just one week? Yes, yes it is. Is it possible to fix this? Absolutely.
After weeks of friendship by proxy, having our mutual friends pass messages to each other, yesterday, the old smile was back. Almost as if none of the previous months had happened at all, the laughing, smiling and waving just happened. No talk as to what had gone wrong previously, and, in fairness, I don’t care. Part of me will always wonder what exactly has changed, my feelings are still the same, I don’t know if anything has changed on her end.
In all honesty, I know that I have been stupid this last couple of months. I have just been so scared of letting my feelings be known, I now realise that I don’t need to. The amazingness of a relationship like this is worth far too much to risk. The intention now is to just allow this move forward naturally, there’s no need to force it. I’ve missed out on so much time with the person I love the most through both my and her fears. However uncomfortable and awkward it may be currently, or it gets in the future, I hope I act in a more mature way. If I do this then at least I know I have done all I can.